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More pics of The Escape my trainer opened right across from The Onion Factory in Anderson. Book a weekend and learn how to peel away the fat layers, cook healthy, and have fun with friends.

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This is the Escape in Anderson right across from The Onion Factory! Book a night away with your friends and learn how to change your life eating healthy!

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I’ve been struggling mentally going through the process of becoming a new me. UDC of Muncie is sponsoring me to get healthy at The Onion Factory in Anderson. I started March 1, 2014 and been going strong. As of last Friday I’m down 46 pounds and 28. 5 inches. Fat percentage is down as well but I can’t mathematically figure that out…so I have to ask my trainer. I will admit that my fat percentage was so high I had to be calculated as a male and am now a female so that’s a big deal. Yes, I’ve hit my road blocks but I’ve never give up…I can’t.  Losing weight is a hard battle both physically and mentally. I didn’t let the bad thoughts take over and send me in a downward spiral last week at my weight in when I didn’t lose anything…but I also didn’t gain. I realized I made a few mistakes, my protein was off and my trainer said “You haven’t let me say anything…you’ve said it all yourself. You know what you need to do”. I was feeling discouraged but understood I can’t let the demons take over…I was about to leave the factory when a few other onions were working in the kitchen. I love these ladies. They asked how my weigh in went and with tears in my eyes I said not well. They started talking  to me and sharing their own struggles & set backs over the years and that I’m doing a wonderful job and they can see the changes and are  proud. To keep going and not get discouraged even though they’ve been there and done it and it’s hard. Also, last week my Grandpa said I’m looking fantastic and he is proud of me. My gramps is my hero and was the only person that was honest, brutally honest, about my weight over the years. He wasn’t trying to be cruel but he was concerned and wanted me to be the best me I could be. Him seeing me do this journey and watch me shrink little by little has brought joy to his heart and the most important thing is I’ve made myself proud. Yes I have a long road…I’m far from over …but my trainer and I are  determined to reach my goal no matter how long it takes. She said she won’t give up on me. I’m happy to say week 3 of cooking for myself has been going well. Egg whites and grilled chicken salads are my meals constantly but I’m also starting to get more creative in the kitchen using ground turkey, creating different salad dressings, and getting creative with my veggies like adding a little garlic herb spices to my broccoli and peppers. I was on the Onion Factorys food since March so cooking for myself has been challenging but it’s honestly all about prep and planning. Remember you lose weight in the kitchen and get fit in the gym. Friendly reminders that I’ve learned from Lisa at The Onion Factory…Drink half your body weight in water, watch your fat and sugar grams, get enough protein, and eat every 2.5 to 3 hours. IF I CAN DO THIS SO CAN YOU!!! <3 

P.S. Is really me? Is this really how much I’ve changed WOW!!!!!!

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Where do I start? 

I beat my challenge with my trainer. She challenged me to get off her food and do it myself, to make it every workout class, and see what happens. I lost a few pounds and inches, but the great thing was I lost .8% body fat. WHOO HOO! I was so elated I asked her if I could do it for a second week and of course she agreed. 

This past Friday I had my weigh in and lost two pounds. Are you kidding me!?! I worked so hard and felt I had lost more. The first week of our challenge I killed it..this week not so much. My trainer could see the disappointment on my face and she assured me we are getting there, she won’t give up on me, and we are so close, just a few pounds, to hitting the 50 lb mark which is a major accomplishment. After that she’ll get the next 50 off! She wasn’t upset but I was!!! She has me going on week three of cooking for myself and doing the evening workout classes…my protein is off and why my second week results weren’t as strong as the first. She explained that until we get me down 100 lbs we will constantly battle with protein… I have to consume a massive amount of protein on days when I do cardio,lift ,and workout classes which is impossible based on the fat and sugar grams I’m allowed a day. I should be further along but life happens and we have to work with what we have. I had to leave workout class…more on that in a minute but do you remember my last blog? 

Opening up about my true emotions regarding my weight was terrifying but the response was overwhelming. It’s nice to know I have so many people watching my journey, sharing my struggles, and offer kind words when I need them most…and most of all I’m not the only one that feels that way about themselves. The support and kindness is amazing it may be on social media, phone calls, texts, or even when I’m grocery shopping but it means more than you know. I can’t believe I’m inspiring so many to get healthy!!!!  I have had great support on this difficult journey. It seems now I’ve hit the point where the physical part isn’t the struggle it’s the mental part that is tearing me down…it’s coming to terms with the demons that got me to this point.My trainer warned me about this time and time again…that yes it’s physical but also mental…boy oh boy it hurts. I hate facing these demons…I run. I hide. I’m a positive person who enjoys and loves my life…I’m blessed beyond belief. But when it comes to me and my weight I’m the opposite.  I try not to think about it, and like a brick, it all hits me. I wrote this down on Friday evening and although I’m scared to share this I also find it important…because maybe just maybe someone else is going through the same thing so here goes: 

"Well, that’s a first! I had to leave in the middle of workout class because I was disgusted with myself after only losing 2 pound this week..looking in the mirror just was too much!  I admitted to myself and my trainer I want to look in the mirror and not hate myself, and I want to feel proud of who I am instead of ashamed.  "    Who is this person? How did I let myself get to this point of being so dark about myself, fat, ugly, and in my eyes almost un-loveable. In a way I feel like I don’t deserve to be beautiful, I don’t believe I deserve to be happy. Why? Why do I have those thoughts? “

A few weeks ago my trainer asked me this question: Are you ready to be a new you? Are you ready to have your outside match your inside? 

 That question has been on my mind since she asked it. I really am ready but I’m also extremely afraid. I’m afraid of getting attention because of my looks. Been there done that and it changed me…and not in a good way. Being a chubby girl it’s all about my personality not my looks and I’m afraid of losing that. I like blending in…I’m a wall flower. No one hits on the big girl and because of that I don’t have to open myself up to be hurt. For some odd reason I believe the bullies and past loves who told me I was ugly and beat me down about my looks…that sticks with you. The mental struggle I’m going through is intense and I hope that I can find the answers I’m looking for…but it’s tough and something I’m struggling with. I don’t want to go to that dark place but in order for me to succeed I must. I need to find self-love again, I need to find that confidence that made me who I am, and I need to face my inner demons. Why are we so hard on ourselves?  I know that thinking, saying, and even writing this for the world to see is a step in the right direction..even though it’s horrifying to admit this to myself let alone the universe. Please don’t judge me…I’m really afraid of that. In the meantime I’ll continue eating healthy, working out, and pushing my self to my limits. I’m becoming a new me…and although it’s scary it’s empowering. 



Don’t give up. You can do this. Get healthy because it’s saving your life. Get up and get moving! My friends, I believe in you <3 

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Bare with me because I’m a talker not a writer. I’ve refrained from sharing how I truly feel about my weight for many reasons…embarrassment, vulnerability, shame, failure, judgment, opening myself up to more pain the list goes on. Today I’ve decided to push those fears aside and fully open up about my journey. I was bullied in elementary and middle school for being “fat”. That sticks with you forever and messes with your self-worth and confidence.  In high school I decided to push myself to get skinny and did it in unhealthy ways which resulted in eating disorders but I gained a confidence I never had before. College happened and I’m not sure if it was all the late night beer and pizzas, not caring because I was in a relationship, or the lack of time and effort but I slowly started to gain weight over the years and continued battling eating disorders.  I was in an unhealthy relationship for almost 9 years where the person beat me down so much mentally I believed I was fat, ugly, and not worthy of love. How I let it get to that point or why I believed it I’ll never know…one day I woke up and couldn’t look at myself in the mirror. Who is that woman? Where is that spunky, fun loving, happy, self-confident, gorgeous gal? She was lost and hiding behind fat. I believed it was the reason no one wanted to love me and why I was single…actually if I’m being honest I still feel I’m not worthy of love. I’m to fat and ugly for a man to want to date me. This is a battle friends…it really is. Well anyways I’ve been miserable and ashamed for years. What happened? How did it get to this point that I’m 150 pounds over weight? How is my body still healthy…no diabetes, no heart issues, no high blood pressure…I was lucky one. I would try this diet or that diet and lose a few pounds but gain it right back. I prayed to help me find ways, I asked people what they did, I was desperate enough to try anything but nothing worked. Thankfully my prayers were answered. I was approached for an endorsement through my job to get healthy and was terrified, nervous, and felt like I couldn’t do it. However, I knew that if I did it in the public eye that I wouldn’t let myself fail…how could I? I was given an opportunity to share such a personal journey, change myself, and be an inspiration to others. I was blessed to save & change my life, learn to be healthy for the rest of my days, with an amazing support system, but most importantly to love myself again.My co worker Jeanne I owe the world to for setting this up. UDC of Muncie for sponsoring me to get healthy. NASH FM 102.5 for believing in me. Of course I owe everything to Lisa and The Onion Factory for not giving up on me, pushing me to my limits, tough love, and believing in me when I didn’t believe in myself.  I’m far from loving who I am. I struggle daily  looking in the mirror because who I am on the inside doesn’t match who I am on the outside. I thought that this would be just a physical journey but I was wrong! It’s both physical and mental. I’ve proven to myself and the whole world that I can do the physical aspects of it, now I must face the inner demons that have followed me since First Grade. My trainer warned me about this…that we will get into the mental aspects of why you got to where you are but man I didn’t know our chats and watching The Biggest Loser would open such a flood gate of emotions. I know I’m not alone & that so many struggle with these same issues. This journey is far from over but if I can do it…anyone can. It’s not only a journey to get healthy but a journey of loving myself again. Don’t give up…you are worth it! 

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Hello friends and those following my healthy lifestyle change. It’s been a tough week being on my own for food, workout classes, and battling another round of sickness but I refuse to give up on the challenge my trainer gave me this week. This evening I have my weekly check-in and I hope it’s big results…if not I don’t know mentally if I can handle another bad weigh-in. 

My trainer, from The Onion Factory, recommended I watch Extreme Weight Loss and The Biggest Loser. Extreme weight loss is a great show but I just can’t emotionally connect with the people. Last night was the premiere of The Biggest Loser and I decided to give it a whirl…OMG ADDICTED! I was balling my eyes out through the 2 hour episode because I’m going through the same things. I feel the same way that I’m undeserving of this opportunity, I feel embarrassed, a failure, that maybe I’m not worth all this time, effort, and energy that others have invested in me. It’s not a daily struggle it’s a struggle every second of every day. It’s an amazing thing to watch and realize I’m far from alone on this journey and that others are fighting just as hard to save their life. 
In Jessies blog on The Biggest Loser Website he wrote:

…”This show truly is about the human spirit and how willing and courageous a person can be to not only change what’s going on on the outside, but, more importantly, to go to the core, the inside, the place where the pain lives, the place that many run from. To see how open and vulnerable these contestants were willing to be was inspiring, and reminded me why I do what I do. The real work is done from the inside out.”

It’s true! The real work is done from the inside out and my trainer has mentioned that before but it took me watching others go through it for me to get it. I just hope that others battling being overweight know you are not alone and you CAN do it just don’t give up. =)

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I share my highs and my lows. This is a true journey about getting healthy and losing 140-150 pounds and getting down to 26% body fat. Yes I’m determined, Yes I haven’t given up, but it’s not easy but it’s worth it.

Friday my trainer chewed me out. I was happy I  lost two pounds and three inches but she was not, I should be much further along than I am. Sometimes you need a kick in the rear but I’m trying and doing everything I can…this is so difficult and I wonder if I can truly accomplish what we set out to do. I’m really thrown off because of doing a morning show at this time…I barley can sleep because I’m just so terrified of not waking up, I’m stressed, and the pressure is overwhelming and it’s affecting my results. Life happens. These things will happen for the rest of my life and I need to learn to deal with it…and honestly I think I’m doing a heck of a job but still need to step it up.  6 months and I still struggle daily, wait I actually struggle every minute with a healthy lifestyle but I refuse to give up. My trainer is changing it up and has challenged me. I’m challenged to go off her food and cooking and do it myself…cool I can do that. Also, I have to go to three intense workout classes this week and then weigh in on Friday to see what the results are. I’m on day 2 of this challenge and barley can move. Cooking for myself isn’t to bad…it’s all about prep and planning…that’s probably the hardest because you can’t just wake up and say ok I’ll figure it out. Nope gotta have a plan. I went to workout class last night and she put me in the front of class because of our challenge and so she could keep a close eye on me. I was dripping sweat, legs shaking so bad I thought I was going to fall over, and literally pushing my body to the extremes. It’s pretty amazing when you think you can’t do something and then you dig deep and find the motivation to keep it going. Also, standing up in the front of class, next to your trainer, and others watching you does something inside…I probably should do that every class because I pushed hard. I did have to sit out on an exercise because I went white and felt dizzy. But I picked myself back up and continued the workout. She giggled at the end and said how you doing on day 1 of our challenge…Great I told her, lying through my teeth, I got this. 

I felt awesome after the workout, gotta love all those endorphins, dripping sweat, and the feeling you pushed yourself to your limits. Today however I’m hurting. My lower back feels like bricks are on it pulling it down, I barley can raise or move my arms, and my legs are kinda killing me to. They say no pain no gain right? EEK! If I can do this so can you!!!! Big thanks to UDC of Muncie for sponsoring me to get fit at The Onion Factory in Anderson with NASH FM 102.5

P.S. If anyone wants to give me a massage just let me know. Ouchie ;)

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I’ll admit I’ve been struggling on my healthy journey. It seems like this summer I just keep getting set back and I know I should be farther along. The good news is I’m determined and although I get down on myself. both mentally and physically. I will never give up..I’m not allowed to. People ask if I’m crazy all the time for sharing this journey with the world, and yes I’m crazy, but I also know it holds be accountable and there is no room for failure.

Life happens, stress, lack of sleep, oopsie moments, or whatever else has been thrown my way has jeopardized my weight loss. BUT, these things will happen for the rest of my life and I’m learning the tools to make healthy decisions no matter what I’m dealing with. I used to use food as an escape. Bad day? Pizza, Beer, and chocolate fixed everything. Now when I have a bad day I workout and my mood instantly changes, & if I want chocolate I make a chocolate protein drink. I don’t crave the things I used to and I sure don’t use food as an escape…I use it to feed my body and give me energy. Living healthy is hard and challenging in today’s world but it’s so worth it..I’m literally saving my life and adding more years to it. Plus the way you feel is amazing!!! 

I’m getting healthy thanks to the University Dermatology Center sponsoring me to get fit at The Onion Factory in Anderson with NASH FM 102.5. I’ve been doing it for almost 6 months and I’m very close to hitting the 50lb mark. *Sigh* still have 90-100 pounds to go. I had class last night and it was “Gym” night for us ladies. We did hula hoops, jump rope, jumping jacks, sit ups and lifted weights. It was fun, challenging, hot ,and exhausting but we did it. 

I even lifted heavier weights then I probably should have just to prove my trainer wrong and that I could do it. Well played Lisa, well played indeed. You know that ice bucket challenge going around? I wanted to call out my trainer, Lisa, but she reminded me that payback is a bit**…ok yeah I’m going to re-think that one since we have personal training sessions weekly. My arms hurt so bad today but I love the pain. It proves to me that my efforts on breaking down the muscle to rebuild is actually working. If I can wash my hair without it hurting…I didn’t lift heavy enough ;) It’s not just about doing the workouts and eating correctly…it’s about not being alone in the journey. I love these girls and we are doing it together one step at a time…it’s a support system and even after you graduate you still have that support system as soon as you walk through the doors at The Factory. 

Truth here we go…I gained  3 pounds last week and stayed the same with my inches and fat percentage…ugh how frustrating! It’s the lack of sleep and I was under a tremendous amount of stress, surprise, that affects your results. So I’ve been trying to get extra sleep even if I have to take a nap, I’ve been trying to keep my stress level down, eating every 3 hours, and getting enough protein. Not to mention working out…it’s a commitment to get healthy and it’s a difficult journey but if I can do it…believe me you can! And when I get discouraged I just put a side by side and realize I’ve come to far to give up now! 

Transformation Tuesday Amanda style: 

I’m far from what I once was but not yet what I’m going to be! Come on get up and get moving. Let’s get healthy! 

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I forgot to post this side by side a few weeks ago. How crazy is this (look below)? I have a long journey of losing weight and fat percentage, and getting myself to be healthy but I’m on the journey. I started this Healthy Lifestyle Journey back in March at The Onion Factory in Anderson thanks to UDC of Muncie for sponsoring me to get fit on NASH FM 102.5. I was scared, nervous, felt like I’d let everyone down and not be able to adhere to the healthy lifestyle changes. It’s been a little over 5 months and wow just wow. I’ve had some challenges but I refuse to give up. I’m in my second 8-week course and still learning more with each class.  I feel better, I have more energy, and I truly understand what being healthy means. You can never ever eat poorly and expect to be healthy or workout to compensate that snickers bar you had earlier. It’s all about eating clean and eating often, drinking half your body weight in water, exercising, getting enough protein, lifting weights and LOOK at what you can accomplish! I still have another 100 pounds to drop but if I can do it anyone can. 

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I’m still on the road to get healthy thanks to UDC of Muncie sponsoring me to get fit at The Onion Factory in Anderson. I was really proud that after weeks of not doing this move I was able to hold them both for 1 minute last night during class. If I can do…I thought anyone can. 

Today I decided that I needed to challenge my co workers, Mike Lees and Dash, from NASH FM 102.5  to do the Superman and Bananas workout. 

Why is this such an important move? It works your core, and abs and if you do it correctly you will feel the burn. 

To do Superman: lie on your stomach with arms straight out in front of you and legs extended behind you; both should be shoulder-width apart. Lift your legs and arms simultaneously off the floor; hold for 1 minute.

To do Bananas: Flip over to your back and do the same thing. 

To make these moves even harder and give you better results, keep your arms and legs just about the ground. If your legs are shaking, you are doing it right! 

It looks easy but my friends it is not. I was however impressed by my co workers! Come on try it. If WE can do it…anyone can! 

Get up and move! Get Healthy with Me! 

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Is that really me? Wow. A picture can not lie and I’m happy to announce that this past week I lost another 6 pounds and 7 inches with The Onion Factory in Anderson and UDC of Muncie sponsoring me on NASH FM 102.5 . Little by little I’m getting healthy and saving my life. It’s not easy, it’s a challenge every minute of every day. My trainer said something last week in class that really had an impact on me…she said it’s a lot easier to NOT eat. Eating is a job and something you have to do every three hours, you have to feed your engine. It’s true. NOT eating would be so much easier…fueling your body is a job that never stops. When you are at work, at an event, grocery shopping, etc. You have to plan, you have to be aware of time, you have to choose wisely, people will tempt you and you have to remain strong and remember that eating is your full time job. EATING is where it starts. You lose weight in the kitchen and you get fit in the gym. Darling, if I can do it anyone can!! =)